dress: WOODSTOCK FLORAL MAXI DRESS more colors HERE and HERE // sunglasses: BLACK CAT EYE SUNGLASSES // shoes: BIEGE SUEDE PUMPS // necklace: LAPIS AND PAVE HEART NEKCLACE // bracelet: HERMES H BRACELET // bracelet: DAVID YURMAN BRACELET
Anyone else feeling overwhelmed?
Lately, I can’t shake the feeling of being overwhelmed or impending doom. While I do tend to feel that I am being a little dramatic, I can’t seem to get a handle on life lately. Things are happening too quickly, excitement or change is at an all time high and I constantly feel that I am forgetting something. I find myself packing and repacking diaper bags and day bags, walking in circles looking for the car keys that are inevitably in my hands and running back in the house to “grab one more thing” and then having no idea of what it is.
Maybe it is because I am trying to do it all and don’t think that I can possibly. Maybe it is the hassle of trying to run a business, be a mom, a wife, a sister, a daughter and a cute, well informed, on top of current events, clean and showered one at that.
I was lucky enough to be sat next to one of my brother’s friends at a recent event and we were discussing life and the always changing aspect of it. He was always nice to me, and always felt like a brother even though the calendar would claim that I hadn’t seen him in years. He had gone through hardships and also recently got married ands started a family. We agreed that there are endless phases of life that are ever changing and we both wanted to pause it to enjoy the current phase.
Maybe that is just it, I am constantly searching for the pause button.
I am so enjoying getting to know myself and have recently realized that while we are all constantly looking to adjust to current life situations, life situations are only current for a moment. Never are things comfortable, constant or normal. Especially with two young ones.
While I like to share pretty moments, clean outfit and “perfect” moment on social media, please be aware that this is not reality! I truly hope it is for some accounts I follow, but know with mine, that there are many, many moments that you don’t see. I like to keep moments private, live in the moment and not document everything. My family is dealing with not one, but two earth shattering, life changing, rattle you to your core diagnoses, but I know that you don’t want to hear about it or see it. Nor do I want to share it with you. And the people that it affects most have asked me not to.
Again and again, I state that I am a bad blogger. The list is never-ending and growing by the day: I don’t put my kids on the Internet, I don’t like to document everything, I don’t have the patience or time to put makeup on everyday, that’s why you see me using a lot of filter in Insta stories or of me talking to my feet. My life is blessed, balanced and I am lucky to have it. But I want to reiterate, what you see is not what you get. It is inevitable to compare ourselves, but I want to remind you that empowered women empower women.
I am not a huge fan of group pictures with hashtag mom tribe or squad goals because it feel clicky and high school. I pride myself in being a part of this group of women who are trying to do it all, part of this group of bloggers who think they have it together to tell you, “you must have this top!”, part of this generation of moms that have the world at their finger tips, but with unbalance pressures to therefore do it all and share it all too.
I don’t really know what I am trying to get at by sharing this, but I hope that it touches another mom who found herself feeling defeated for no good reason, or for a young women who doesn’t feel good enough. You. Are. and YOU are doing great.
these amazing photos are by ASHA BAILEY